It sounds like you're expressing some really intense and painful feelings. If you're feeling overwhelmed, hurt, or like no one cares, it’s very important to reach out to someone you trust—a friend, family member, or a mental health professional. You don’t have to face this alone, and there are people who want to support and help you. If you want to talk more about what you're going through, I'm here to listen. But also please consider reaching out to someone who can provide direct support. You're not alone.